➔ life's too short to even care at all, oh.

[vafanculo]

if i could find a way to see this straight. i'd run away. to some fortune that i should have found by now. and so i run now to things they said could restore me. restore life the way it should be.

OOC | Order is KIM ➔ KAAYA ➔ JULYA If that's okay with everyone? C:

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Re: ...

[9inchesnailed]

Gideon: I said you felt old, you sound like you always did... just like I remember it.

[He drifts off sounding slightly wistful, he never thought he would ever be the type to wish for yesterdays to return, even for a small while]

Gideon: thanks... this spot kinda reminds me of Ludus actually, or rather that world we were made to stay in before Ludus.

i swear to god i will be less tldr

[vafanculo]

[ ⎯it's a stupid notion, a notion he should have abandoned when he was younger - that gideon was untouchable. with skin built so thick it could withstand anything. the unstoppable force against every immovable object.

it's unwise, he reminds himself, everything loses momentum, eventually.

they're no longer young but it's not an age where death is a familiar friend. and when cameron gets the message through his personal adviser, it catches him by surprise. a reflexive sadness washing over him, drowning him for a moment until he remembers to speak. to issue arrangements and make plans. he hasn't had the time to keep in touch, to be an active part of any life other than his own.

( partly because they're reminders, reminders of a time lost and something he can never come back to again. they're reminders when things were easier, when nick didn't have a bullet through the skull and cameron learned to be someone without his titles. to be liked for more than his fame or wealth. a reminder that he was more than his duties, more than a child trying to fill his brother's large shoes, more than a king who was the second option.

-- he's had to give that at all up. the weight of a country doesn't just rest on his shoulders, it crushes and bares it's weight against him and cameron can do nothing but take it all. )

however, he owes gideon this.

he files it away as a personal affair and requests privacy from his council. he tells them: 'a week at most, the kingdom won't fall without me' and he'll spend every moment in their company wondering if it will.

His heart gets as heavy as his footsteps which creak along the pier as he joins their company. The hands in the pockets of his dark brown houndstooth over coat nervously clench into fists. he hasn't spoken to either of them in a decade and though he can deduce the little things from the minute details in both their bearings - he doesn't know them any better than he knows strangers. Interrupting their conversation entirely. ]

Rumors tells me you were dying.

[ the tone harbors as much warmth as it does cynicism. Flashing them both an easy grin. ]

I've never been known for punctuality.

Re: i swear to god i will be less tldr

[facebooks]

[A melancholic look, as he hears what Cameron said]

You really don't cut corners Cameron. Then again i've never much known you for your amazing tact.

[a slight joke, the king that Cameron had now become, Didier had never quite opted to talk to him any differently.He'd seen Cameron these past few years for purely professional reasons, it hadn't been as long ago as with Gideon.]

[He looked back at Gideon, and placed a hand on his shoulder]

How have you been doing, old friend? [Something as small as jesting had become rare for him. With what the complex life he lived now did to him, it's no wonder he sounded older.]

you can be as TLDR as you want ;;

[9inchesnailed]

Gideon: never been very good with tact either

[He doesn't sound upset, just amused, they changed so much... both of them, but at the same time, they were still almost the same as how they were back then]

Gideon: and where did you hear that from? I simply sent my two old friends a message if they'd like to get together for a small chat.

[He smiles slightly] 'yeah changed but at the same time not really'

Gideon: I've been doing ... alright.

Re: you can be as TLDR as you want ;;

[vafanculo]

[ he gives a momentary pause at didier's question. ] - I've certainly had better days. As to your retort, G - I like keeping tabs on the things I value.

[ he says without thinking and he withdraws that statement, turns his head to face the lake. Nick haunts his words. ]

What? 10- possibly fifteen years and all you want is a chat?

[ shooting didier a softer expression. ] - you've always said I'm terrible with small talk.

[facebooks]

Being two relatively smart individuals, surely you underestimate us Gideon.

[Shrugs]

To be honest, it was more of the intuition one has as friends that brought me here more than anything... [looks away with an obvious melancholic expression]

Age truly is an interesting thing to reflect upon, now that I think about it, [Implying he hadn't spent a sleepless night being tormented by thoughts along these lines.] There I go babbling whimsically again.

[a pause]

So tell me then Gideon, what is the idle small talk you wish to impart on us ?

[9inchesnailed]

Gideon: nah knew you guys would figure it out long before anyway

[What was it he wanted to talk about indeed, in the first place what did he really want and intend when he contacted them? To catch up? to spend some time with old friends? to remember yesterday? to remember the times, when he felt like a normal person, the short period in his life where there wasn't a constant target painted on his back? to remember happier days?]

[He sighs deeply. No it was none of those.]

[Catching up after almost 15 years would be a bit impossible if not awkward, spending time with them maybe, but he knew that wasn't really something they would do now, not really... and remembering? he could do that just fine by himself, everyday he spent fighting after he had left Ludus was a constant reminder for him of happier days]

Gideon: nothing really... I just... I just wanted to see you both, thats all.

[He finally turns to look at them both, his once blue eyes now seemed to literally dull in color]

Gideon: The first to go is the eyesight they said, then slowly, everything else.

[he looks back at the lake]

Gideon: I just wanted to see you both before that happened I guess... before I can barely make any sense of the world around me. [He gives a small chuckle] I just missed you both is all.

I'm sorry for wasting your time on something like this.

[vafanculo]

[ Cameron gives pause at that statement, a younger part of him wants to mock. Ask Didier if he's using the proper adjective because Didier's babbling being whimsical feels like a warm shot of espresso flushed through his skin. Warm and excited. It earns him a scoff. And there's a childish part of Cameron that wants to contradict. Quirk a brow and go : 'R e a l l y?'. ]

[ but as far as friends go, they've been mostly fair weather until gideon and didier so it does surprise him. Surprise him that the brevity of their friendship exists THIS far. ]

Well, it's my time to decide whether or not something is a waste of time, no?

[ it's not. never, not you two. ]

How much longer do you have? [ a stillness to his voice. ]